Today, I decided to deactivate my FB account for an unspecified period of time. Because of all of the turmoil that I have been through these past 4 weeks with Carolyn, my emotions are all over the place and mostly irrational. I guess that is the beauty of living with mental illness all my life is that I have become pretty good at recognizing my own irrational behavior but I am just not capable of stopping said behavior.
These past few weeks, everything on FB either hurts my feelings or makes me mad or both. I have made comments on several posts that were just unnecessary and one was even down-right rude. I know that the fact that I have to give up FB because it affects my mood is in itself perhaps irrational behavior. I am learning at Al-Anon that I have to take care of myself, and right now, giving up FB is a good thing for me. I didn't tell anyone except Lauren McCollum, Joey and Bibs that I was going dark so hopefully people won't miss me or if they do they won't think I unfriended them.
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